This week has been better!

This week has better. I have been able to work out and walk this week now that my foot and ankle is healed. I have not weighed myself, but since I started working out again I have not been eating as much. As a matter of fact, I have not been hungry most of this week and I have skipped meals because I didn't think about eating. Then when I do eat I am not eating as much. I was going to do the liquid shake thing all day, but instead I have just had them for breakfast. I guess that counts as eating.

Red meets seem to work best with my band. This week I am going to try to eat more red meat and less Turkey and Chicken and see what happens.

still waiting...carb cravings are huge

My cravings for carbs have been at an all-time high this summer. I am struggling to get it under control. I have gained 20 pounds since March. The scale needs to start moving in the other direction soon! GRRR!!!!

I am still waiting to hear back from the surgeon about my port revision so they can try filling my band more.

In the mean time I am going to drink protein shakes for the next couple of weeks and clear the carbs out of my body. This usually helps to get my carb cravings down.

My foot is healed for the most part so  I can start working out and walking again. This will help as well.

Being obese and loving food sucks.

Something positive---Meeting Donnie Wahlburg, Jordan night, Jon Knight, Joe Mac and Danny Wood

While I am not where I want to be I am getting closer! This summer I had the opportunity to meet my favorite Boy Band. It was an amazing adventure! While I am still obese and have daily struggles with fast food. I had rumors that Danny Wood has rude to obese fans. I have never experienced this with him. He actually has congratulated me on my loss on Twitter. He said that I looked "really good" when I finally met him. As I went down the line I had nothing but encouragement on the way I looked. Donnie said, "You look fine" and hugged me and kissed me on the cheek.  Why is this so important to my journey? Yes, my husband compliments me and finds me attractive. However 15 months prior to this I met Jordan Knight in Las Vegas and was so self-conscious about my weight that I felt I didn't deserve to meet him (even though I had PAID to meet him.) This had nothing to with Jordan and everything to do with me. My confidence is higher than what it has been. Donnie and Danny made me feel very comfortable with meet and greet.

Donnie Wahlberg and me!

Right now though I am struggling. My cravings are not under control and neither is my mindset. I fractured my foot at the end of May and I have not been able to work out. If I am not working out I tend to eat more out of boredom. Plus it is summer and I am not working...so I have more time to think about food. I have gained 20 pounds since March. I really am feeling this 20 pounds. It needs to go away and go away quickly. My new clothes are tight and my breathing is heavy and difficult. I don't remember noticing the breathing before. I think this is from staying off my foot for the last several weeks.  Fried foods have got to disappear.

This week I have been on a mission to eat healthier. I bought fish, shrimp, Edamame, tuna, chicken, eggs, ground lean turkey, skinless chicken breast, tenderized round steak, turkey sausage,  fruit and veggies to make our dinners. I HATE fish, but I prayed that God would make it taste good and well...together we did it and my Tilapia was pretty good. My foot is FINALLY lost all of its swelling and I have been able to take my walks without pain this week. Somehow I have to get back to my two hour workouts.

I am ready for this next part. It is time to be below 250. My next goal is 250 by Labor Day and 200 by Christmas.
I apologize I am to tired to edit this tonight, but I want to publish it anyways!

Band complications

Two things are up with my band. Number one..I may not have been receiving fills when I was told I was receiving fills. The paperwork does not show the I received the last two fills that I was told I received. There is no way to tell if I received them or not because my port has flipped and is not accessible. I am 13 months out from surgery and already have to have a revision. Hopefully after the revision/during the revision my band can be filled to where I need it. I am hungry, looking for food and finding everywhere I drive or walk in this city and gaining the weight back faster than I lost it. Really disappointed. At this the lap band and the whole process seems to be another failure.